I guess this is just the place I needed to type everything out... Why am I feeling this?! It felt sucky. Have been drinking alot to drown my sorrows. But guess it didn't work at all. Haha.. Daddy, I guess changing caregroup is the only way I can be myself in a caregroup. But actually to be honest, Maybe I didn't want a cg to attend.. Lol.. Anyway noone will be reading this, so its fine.. I really don't know what's wrong with her?! I don't even know what's wrong with me?!!! I don't wanna go thru the cycle again, but why am I feeling all these shitty feelings?
Stumbled into her blog just now, what a stupid thing to do. Saw what she type and I don't even understand what she meant by getting over her, when was I even under her?! Maybe its not me, just another guy.. Lol. Please fall in love again and make this all better.. I'm just sick and tired of these shit.. Don't even know why am I using this language on my blog.. But I don't care because noone is reading this except me and Jesus...

Jesus, help me.. I don't want to be a part of the world. But I feel I'm slowly being drawn into the world. Cry till no more tears.. only pain of sorrows and abit of hatred.. I want to get away from this shit.. I want to live high.......