Maybe its really better that I leave completely if that's what you think of me. Yup, broke the promise and read your blog again. Saw the song you have posted and the write out. I really understand.. If ever I want to degrade myself again, I will not let you know.. Sorry about last night..
Kinda stress right now.. So many things to study, and things to prepare for the coming simulator.. Feel like going out to drink tonight, but so many things to study, and the amount we drank last night seems enough for the whole month already. Seems like I'm on a spiral way down to grave. Just hope Jesus will really save me out of this. I'm really sick and disgusted by myself.. I want to leave.. But can I? I hope so..